Benched

As i sit here and think about,
What it is about you...
My heart skips a beat
And my mind races too.
I look at your eyes,
And thats where its told,
Your mysterious story begins to unfold.
A man thats in love with a girl thats not here,
And the girl that is here has been living in fear.
She tries to stay strong because she's sees something there.
A man thats been hurt and needs tender care.
She steps up and holds him when life holds no slack.
Runs her hands through his hair and caresses his back.
The whole time she wonders, will it always be rough?
Will he ever truly love her? Will she be enough?
Will he girl that he left be the one that he longs for?
Will his mind always wonder if he should've done more?
Will he wallow in sadness or can they move on?
Will the doubt and the anguish ever be gone?
The girl that is here sits melancholy,
His friends, they all tell him but he's too blind to see.
She is falling quite fast and will hand him her heart,
She'll only be able if his past and him part.
For now she keeps trying, hoping he'll see...
That she is a good one, and always will be.

Scattered Emotions

My thoughts are scattered,
Frazzled in the mist...
You tore through my world
Like a clenched tight fist

I hear what your saying
Your hearts a thick shell.
I feel your burden,
I too, have seen hell.

Emotions inclusive,
Mine tend to run high.
My fear is a loyal
Kindhearted guy.

Ive been burnt before
My scars, they run deep.
It will take a strong person
But i promise you'll reap.

Im a genuine person,
Let me heal your heart,
And have you remind me
That life is an art.

The past is the past,
We both had our falls
The future may be amazing
If fate makes the calls.

Im finished with drama,
Im focused on you.
I will walk by your side,
And show you I'm true.

Ease your mind from the doubts,
They shadow your light.
Love is a battlefield,
I'm ready to fight...

Broken Christmas

Christmas Day is coming,
Its right around the bend.
The hustle and the bustle
Family and friends.

Its supposed to be a joyful time
But i have to struggle through.
Christmas time reminds me
That my life is missing you.

We used to be a family
And our kids were truly blessed.
Now there's Mom's house, Dads house
It feels like such a mess.

I know Im strong and I'll pull through
The boys, they light my life.
I miss our family unit,
And being a good wife.

I hope this Christmas bring you peace
And maybe some to me
Our friendship's what i treasure,
In our broken family.

Wonder Lust

He's got a smile that melts a snowball,
But he's mysteriously shy...
I laid my eyes upon him
And my blood just pumped on by.

His eyes the bluest eyes,
I call them stormy sea.
He kisses me all down my neck
As his eyes, they weaken me.

He runs his fingers up my back
I can barely stand it now
The lights go out, he lays me down
My body's ready...wow.

I lean my face down over his,
And kiss his lips. Divine!
He makes his way inside me
As his eyes lock into mine

The enticement sends me into chills
Im dripping as we go.
He flips around and gently thrusts
His pleasure really shows.

He makes it last into the night
Quiet as can be
Ooops we're getting kinda loud
Oh me oh my oh me!

It finally hits the perfect time
To pull it out and go
I look into his sweet blue eyes
My feelings start to show.

I dont know where we're headed
I dont know what we'll be.
I know i really like him
And i know that he likes me.

Our lives are pretty different
We both have hardened scars
How will we know just if its right
oh keeper of the stars...

He says he should protect me
From himself and all his ways
He doesnt know Im loyal
Or how this movie plays...

I dont know just what is here
Is a couple in the midst?
I only know how much i crave
His sweet and gentle kiss.

I walked him to his truck tonight
As the snowflakes gently fell.
He wrapped his coat around me
And my heart let out a yell.

It said this boys a keeper.
He is gentle and hes kind.
Dont let your heart and head play games
But keep this one in mind.

Its only just the start
The beginnings always sweet
Our paths will cross this way or that
And fates what made us meet.

Great friends, or lovers whos to say
Right now its hard to know.
Enjoying each others company,
Soon it all will show.

Some past things need to be let free,
An internal peace be found
Can we heal each other,
From the ties that keep us bound?

Either way it heads to be
Im happy he's along.
His presence ever fruitful
In my melancholy song.

Christmas Kitten... A true story.

She came to the doorstep
And let out a cry,
A lost, lonely kitten
I had to reply.

So small and so sweet,
Just a wee little thing
I picked her up,
As she started to sing.

Her body was cold,
She was shivering bad.
I gave her a snuggle,
And some food that i had.

I dubbed her my own,
And named her Noelle...
She found us on Christmas
Now isnt that swell?

A new baby kitten,
With beautiful fur
An unexpected present
To love, thats for sure!

My little Noelle,
You picked the right place.
The cold and the predators
You no longer face.

Snuggle up on the couch,
And live your life right.
We both fell in love,
That long Christmas night.

Keeping you safe.

A poem I wrote in light of the Sandy Hook Elementary Shool Massacre on December 14th, 2012. 20 little angels gained their wings along with 6 adults who died protecting them.

Keeping you safe...

"I want to get to Heaven
Before Mommy does
So i can be there waiting
With snuggles and big hugs."

"Mommy says thats not the way
A childs here on earth to stay
She never wants to feel the hole
Of watching her child become a soul"

To the loves of my life,

I love you more today than ever before,
Im thankful that soon you will come through the door.
You will hang up your backpack and kick off your shoes.
We will hug, and i loves, and i really missed you's.

My heart dearly aches for the ones who were shot,
We must show their loved ones they wont be forgot.
I cant even imagine their pain and their sorrow,
Of never getting another tomorrow.

My boys, how i love you, And if only you knew
There is absolutely nothing that i wouldnt do
To make sure you are safe and out of harms way
That is my purpose, day after day.

Sometimes late at night, i watch as you sleep
I feel so complete and my pride runs so deep.
My children are safe and their dreams will be sweet
And when morning comes, they'll be up on their feet.

A new day arises and hope runs abound
Mommy! I love you! My favorite sound.
Get ready for school, you'll be safe there today.
Your teachers will keep you out of harms way.

Your job is to learn, to grow and be free.
Not doubt the world, or its evil entities..
Stand tall and stay strong, its a dark scary place.
My love lights your way, my child. Have faith.