Some Days...

Some days are just too much.
My anger consumes me whole.
I'm left alone to ponder
The hatred in my soul.

Divorce has been my poison,
For almost 2 whole years.
It eats away my kindness.
It fills my heart with fears.

I hate the feeling of bitterness,
That overshadows all my joy.
I feel like such a loser,
Like an old, discarded toy.

I want to find someone,
Who will help me to unpack,
All the cooped up baggage,
And build the hope I lack.

Some days are just too much to bear,
And I take it out on him.
He deserves much better then I give,
But he still goes on a limb.

I wonder what he sees in me.
What could possibly attract,
Such a gorgeous, soulful man
To a girl who's just a wreck?

Maybe I will never know,
But I'm thankful that he's here.
My life is just so painful,
Until he wipes my tears.

~TRH

Pheromonal Wave...

Your sweet lingers,
As it's sits upon my lip.
My heart beats all a flutter,
My mind begins to trip.
I take a breath and hold it tight,
And gather your scent within.
Close my eyes, I'm in a trance,
As I slowly breathe again.
A peaceful ache comes over me,
And the only thing I crave
Is another giant, calming breath,
A pheromonal wave...
It's like a drug addiction,
Your scent my stimuli.
A perfect, happy feeling,
The sweetest kind of high.
I've only ever felt this way,
One other time before.
Half my life spent hooked on him,
But now that loves no more.
I never thought anothers scent
Would debilitate me this way.
Now I see that I was wrong.
Your scent, it makes me fray.
Your smell alone will leave me weak,
But combine it with your kiss,
And wrap your arms around me...
My brain releases bliss!
You're the sweetest man I know,
So easy on my eyes.
I want to call you "Baby",
I need no other guys!
Smooch You JoshyP!

~TRH

The Strong One... (Strength)

Somedays you're just so mean to me,
I really don't know why.
I try my best to make the peace
But you love it when I cry.

My life is getting better,
I met the sweetest man.
I know you will be bitter,
And as difficult as you can.

You seem to love to see me fail,
But not this time you see.
You say you're happy, and you've moved on,
But I believe you do deceive.

You can cut me down and try to dig real deep,
But I will surely persevere,
You have no place left in my heart,
A real man's drawing near.

Instead of getting angry at you,
I know have sympathy.
I once saw you as a strong man,
But the strong one here is me!

~TRH

New Year

I quietly snuck the New Year in,
With the sweetest little kiss.
I smile and pretend I'm happy,
But doubts will cloud my bliss.

True love is what I seek to find,
But my heart says "You will lose!"
"Your heart will just get stomped on,
With a beat up pair of shoes."

I'm labeled with a failing term,
I hate the words "ex wife".
I come with lots of baggage,
Memoirs of my life.

It will take a special kind of man,
To break through all my walls.
My heart is shady, full of doubt.
I'm terrified to fall.

I don't mean to be like this,
I want to let you stay.
I find my mind will twist your words,
So I can push away.

I want so badly to be loved,
But I'm so damn sensitive.
I always seem to mess things up,
Without knowing what I did.

I pretend I'm happy for the year,
When I really want to cry.
Another 365 days of hell?
I think I'd rather die!

~TRH

Nerds

For JNP,

I found myself a nerd like me,
He's cute and smart and shy.
He makes me laugh, we talk all night,
As the hours whizz right by.

The conversations can't be beat,
He knows so much to teach.
I sit there listening closely,
Sucking knowledge like a leach.

I watch him so contently,
He loves to show me things.
My brain craves stimulation,
And that's just what he brings.

I always wanted me a nerd,
A boy so smart and true.
An intellectual to connect with,
The way I have with you.

Thank you Josh, for being there,
And feeding knowledge to my soul,
And letting me just be myself,
You make me feel so whole.

I hope I do the same for you,
And regardless of whats to come,
We've forged a quirky, nerdy bond
That's priceless and it's fun!

~TRH