Some Days...

Some days are just too much.
My anger consumes me whole.
I'm left alone to ponder
The hatred in my soul.

Divorce has been my poison,
For almost 2 whole years.
It eats away my kindness.
It fills my heart with fears.

I hate the feeling of bitterness,
That overshadows all my joy.
I feel like such a loser,
Like an old, discarded toy.

I want to find someone,
Who will help me to unpack,
All the cooped up baggage,
And build the hope I lack.

Some days are just too much to bear,
And I take it out on him.
He deserves much better then I give,
But he still goes on a limb.

I wonder what he sees in me.
What could possibly attract,
Such a gorgeous, soulful man
To a girl who's just a wreck?

Maybe I will never know,
But I'm thankful that he's here.
My life is just so painful,
Until he wipes my tears.

~TRH