Reckless

Her words come fast and reckless,
Like a baseball through my window,
Rattling off the vicious truth,
It hurts like hell to know.

My instinct told me things were off,
Too much you hid from me.
My heart was so in love with you,
My mind refused to see.

Today Im blasted with the truth,
How should I feel right now?
What should I do to get through this?
Please, God. Show me how.

My heart is in my stomach,
And my face is drenched with tears.
Im left to ponder how and why,
And face my biggest fear.

You say you weren't unfaithful,
but you know, my dear, you were.
When you needed someones love, 
You skipped over me for her.

I see the pain these secrets cause,
But nothing will compare,
To the broken pieces of my heart,
The ones that you put there.

I will do my best to pick them up,
And keep on loving you.
But doubt will always linger,
Are the words you say now true?

If things get rough from here on out,
Will you turn to her again?
I will always have to wonder,
If she's more than just your friend...

Fiery Oblivion

My brain is like a fire.
It burns a blaze so red,
Spinning me into oblivion
With the thoughts inside my head.
Escaping is not possible,
Theres nowhere I can go.
My haunted thoughts, my twisted mind
Envelope my radiant soul.
Memories are enemies,
I wish they were not there.
My life has done a drastic turn
But the embers always flare.
I keep the future at arms reach,
And conjure up this doubt.
I try so hard to just relax
And trust it to work out.
I live a pungent darkness,
As I smile my way along 
Terrified of demons,
Their grip intensely strong
My trust has been so broken,
And my emotions shattered too,
I trust that you do love me,
I truly love you too.
My mind tells me Im not good enough,
That beauty you desire...
I tell my brain to knock it off,
I just can't fight that fire.
My thoughts engulf my common sense,
Internal flames ignite.
The pain devours reason.
And there is no end in sight...
My brain is like a fire.
It burns a blaze so red,
Spinning me into oblivion
With the thoughts inside my head.

Moment in Time

As sunlight streams
throughout the room,
I put my arm up over you,
Inhaling our life together.
Perfection is the word,
That hits my mind like stone.
Its time to move and start my day,
As I lay briefly paralyzed.
There is nothing outside this feeling
That could pull my love away.
Inhaling deeply yet again,
The feeling moves throughout my veins 
Our loves become internal
My body thrives on it.
I wish the clock would stop its hands,
For just a little bit.
I want this moment to freeze in time,
As our bodies lay entwined.
Time doesn't stop and I must go,
Though only for awhile.
A smile stretches across my lips,
For the connection thats between us.
I've never been in love like this.
It leaves me feeling weak.
Forever in your grasp.
Take my heart and hold it
Amongst your treasury. 
I will be in your arms tonight
And your kiss upon my lips.
So until then, I think of you,
And embrace this memory
Of the moment when I held you close
And filled my lungs with the power of our unconditional love.
My strength.  My weakness.
My everything. 
I love you.

Earth Day!

Today is Earth Day!
Yes, its true!
The Earth gives life
To me and you! 

Today's the day
So plant a tree
And clean up garbage
That you see.

Today is Earth day,
Yes thats right!
Get outside,
And soak in light.

Its time to hurry,
Our Earth is sad.
We fill her up with garbage,
And treat her very bad.

She looks forward to this day,
Each and every year.
She needs to be replinished.
So get up off your rear!

Every day should be this way,
As she travels 'round the sun.
We take our world for granted.
We have no other one.

I ask a favor of you all,
To do your part today
Show our Earth some special love,
Before our children pay.

{Teah}

Empty Promises

Don't hand me empty promises,
That you never will fulfill.
Don't tell me that you'll try so hard,
Unless you really will.

Don't hand me empty promises,
My heart is too naive.
For if you say you love me,
I will foolishly believe.

Don't hand me empty promises,
They will not do me good.
If you say your love is true, 
Then show me like you should.

Don't hand me empty promises,
For one day I will see
You haven't got intentions
To fulfill your words to me.

With an empty promise,
My heart can not hold on.
Before you see the damage,
My love... I will be gone.

Chaos and Confusion

One day my heart was broken, so I picked it up again.
To trudge on through this weary world,
Full of pride and sin.

I did not care who I would hurt, nor who would love me so.
My heart was glued together but,
The pieces just dont flow.

It was no longer perfect, it was really quite a mess.
A rough, misshapen masterpiece,
Humpty Dumptied at its best.

My heart once held a plethera,
Of hope, love and devotion.
Lately, though it seems thats gone.
Now theres just chaos and confusion.

And what are all these hormones?
They make the whole thing worse.
Love and sex, beauty and bliss...
I think its all curse.

For never can you have them all,
You're left with cold desires.
A broken heart, a patched up mess
That constantly misfires.

Christmas Church Service

The boys attended their first Christmas Church Service last night. Aside from it being an evening service, and them being tired as well as a transition day between Mom and Dads house, they enjoyed it. It was a great service. Grammy Joyce joined us.